this is my story.

Once again I find myself in this same place: in the midst of great friends but with no hands to hold, the best friend you can have, but that's about it, I've never swept anyone off their feet or have them struggling to breath, I can only be that shoulder you lean on, and the guy that listens, I'm a nice guy, do I finish last? No, a steady pace wins the race.

As a friend put it, "You know how to pick em right", it seems that every girl I find interest in has some complications to come along with the great package. I guess noone really is perfect, but it's quite hard to charm someone who's been cheated on, left hanging, let go, or anything else for that matter. Maybe I'm attracted to people who fight the struggle, after all, you never want what you can have, it's human nature. It never seems to work out for me, but I'm not willing to lower the standards, those standards are the only thing keeping me from crossing the fine line of social butterfly and manwhore, which sounds a lot easier at this point....kidding!

Maybe I'm just not trying hard enough, I've always been a firm believer in the "meet halfway" concept, heartbreak and self-deception was an old friend, a friend no more. You gaze into my eyes, I might hold your hands, you cuddle with me, I might raise your chin and land one; otherwise, I tend to let things flow with little or no pressure on the other, and it's evident that it's hard to make things work that way, you have to strip all your defenses and put your guard down; that's the difference between a relationship and a fling, a girlfriend and a fuck buddy. Are you willing to risk yourself because you know they will catch you, or are you just gonna go with the flow, if nothing happens, it's all good but you go on with your life wondering, and she might never really see you for what you are, "just another guy I had a thing with, he was cute, but he never really tried, maybe he just wanted in my pants."

Ask yourself; for love or for pussy? Look at that girl you think about every night and figure out how far are you really willing to go to win her affection. Would you risk your reputation being seen with her in public because you know someone better is in there from what anyone else can see, or is it a hit and quit kinda thing, no strings attached, "I wanted it, I got what I really wanted, then peace" I'm guilty of the same thing, but it's never easy to do it the right way either. It's usually too late to stop when you're exerting yourself without scaring her away or being overwhelmed in feelings that you get carried away, and you realize you got the love bug and she hasn't even asked for your middle name yet. I guess it's best to just play along really, be wary of the steps and moves you make, and never really have expectations, it's not being pessimistic, it's being ideal.