Fridays off result in enlightenment

The best decision I've made since the end of summer?
Booking Fridays off school <3

Easy. Since university life began for me, I hardly have time to blog, I've only blogged once, to be exact. I mean, I hardly find time to study, what more can I do with the small amount of free time I have outside school and studying, having every Friday off will definitely be something to look forward to, and to keep me sane, after all, an extra day of nonsense is just what I need. Nonsense, I say, cause I seriously have no clue what's been going on lately, but I honestly don't like it, not one bit. Besides the fact that I've found myself in a seemingly familiar position from Summer `08, where there is completely nothing to do, and I am bored out of my mind, everyone seems to be drifting like never before, faster than ever, with a large side of misunderstanding. I speak from a general point of view, sure, I got my fair share of this, but some cases are a lot worse. What have we come to? Where are we going? What the fuck are we doing with our lives? I'm sure we all asks ourselves these questions a little too often, I ask myself everyday, maybe we're all growing up, maybe our friendships are just dying, maybe it's just a phase, or maybe it's for the better. One things for sure, the weekends haven't been the same...

Looks like I'm sticking around TWU after all, thank you Lord. Got myself some extra time, gonna work extra hard to get on top of things, I'll be around for at least the rest of the semester. School is going well, I got 11/15 on my 1st Psychology quiz, not bad, but I could've studied a lot more. However, I got like 8/20 on my Grammar Diagnostic quiz, the class average was 44%, I guess I got nothing to feel bad about, but everyone in my English class is so weird...and smart, in a very unique way, *shivers, maybe section "F" really is an advanced class, what the fuck am I doing in there? LOL. I still haven't managed to see the upside to the fact that the ratio of 8 girls is to 1 guy Trinity Western, and I thought this would benefit me in the mornings when I have to get up about 2 hours before class cause my commute is amazingly long. Every morning, I'm usually reading books that I should've read the night before, or observing the group of other commuters that I've come to familiarize myself with the past few weeks, cause I see them almost everyday. There's the Chinese lady who looks fucking fob, but is probably rich as hell. The group of white males who look like the type who probably made your life hell in Highschool, who are now all construction works, in a unstable marriage, with no car, working paycheque to paycheque, I bet they wish that they had paid more attention in class cause he was just as sure as you were that cocaine would get in between himself and that athletic scholarship. The old Chinese guy who is always sleeping on the bus, whom I pray everyday will miss his stop, which never seems to happen...sigh* Last, but not least, the Holy Cross-ers, more specifically the Filipino chick who is always on the phone and eyeing me, and the cute LG who gets on at 146th <3 Yes, this is how boring the commute gets, and oh, there's this white girl who i randomly talked to, who goes to Kwantlen Langley, "Hey, I see you everyday, we should talk.." LOL.

...and the part you've all been waiting for. What's wrong here, even I don't feel the same anymore, even the fire in me is dying, that's how bad you make me get it sometimes. At times, I feel like I'm still dwelling in Highschool when I deal with you, and that might be kinda sad cause I'm already 18, but I saw something in it(you). I knew you kept your game on top of the rest, got your own, held your own, a list that I could go on about all night with all the other reasons that I found you worth the effort, and going back in it for. Wait, let me regain writing composure, I'm pretty sure the last few lines I just typed from the top of my head, made no sense, but my blog is as real as it gets, this in unedited shit niggas <3 LOL, ADD okay, anyway. Why are you so stubborn, are you playing hard to get, or are you just timeless, cause it seems like you've never made any time for me. You might totally deny that, and say you have, but I feel no compensation for all the time you've come short, even though it was unintentional. I don;t think I'm asking for a lot, I just want a bit of your time to get to know you, and likewise. Is that really too much to ask for? I wish sometimes you cared less about all the things that hold you back, and give me a chance. Being indecisive comes with a price, make or break it now, maybe I wasn't the good guy to begin with.