...and when all the smoke clears and when there's no more questions to ask, you move on.
It's been crazy, the past month and a half or so, and now I'm back here trying to make sense of it all.
Let's put it this way, I've put a entire new meaning to the word "twisted". Don't you hate it when run into a situation that could've been prevented but you just chose not to trust your instincts. Instincts are there for a reason, to protect you from harming yourself, I guess even what you feel comes with an insurance policy, but most of the time we just refuse to read the fine print and we go along with what we "feel" is right.
It wasn't your typical situation. I could've prevented it all but I gave into my feelings and even with all the effort after, I still end up with nothing. It just doesn't make sense to me how whenever you get serious about something, that's when things just won't work out. I guess I do tend to complicate things for myself and overthink a hell of a lot, but for those who know my situation, this was beyond just that. Not a single thing went my way, not a single damn thing, and yet, I still chased. Hitch said to never tell a girl how you feel, I breached that. Strauss said to never give in, I breached that too. Maybe I did a lot of things wrong, or maybe I just wasn't your steeze?
But the way things are now, it's sad but I guess it's what's best. Sure, I hate seeing you with someone else, but if you're happy with that, then so be it, have a nice life with him. I'm not about to list all the reason why it's a mistake that you're leaving me out here, cause you already know, I had nothing to hide, and I still don't.
/vent
